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Name: D Train
Country: United States
State: California
Gender: Male
Interests: i like being happy, that makes me feel good
Expertise: toe jam gathering, cracking people's backs, procrastinating, teenage mutant ninja turtles, making weird faces in photos, goofing off, laughing at you, stalkerish abilities, picking my nose, bad timing
Occupation: Sales
Industry: Other
Message: message me
AIM:  turtledood22
Member Since:
3/7/2004
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| You ever get that feeling...
-That every time you talk to/think of/see someone, you get butterflies.
-That you so want things to come out right so you think and practice what you are going to say
-That it is more than just a game
-That you try to stop thinking of someone, yet it just makes you think of them more
-Your dreams are trying to tell you something
-That you would drive for hours just to see someone
-That you missed your chance
-That you remember every little thing about a person because it makes you happy
-That you know you can make someone happy
-That you have bad timing
-That you could talk to someone forever and not be bored
-That you know someone is holding back
-That you just want to read one person's mind
-Where when you hold them, nothing else seems to matter
Take every good feeling you have for someone, now imagine that they don't feel quite the same.
Sucks doesn't it. | | |
| Wow, 4 months since I last touched this thing, 1 year since I moved into this house, 2 years and change since I bought my car and 3 years since I graduated. Time flies and I feel like the only thing that has changed in my life is that I'm not as skinny as I once was. Sad that it's all I can think of. There's so much that I can share with you xanga, but at the end of the day, who cares? Same question I've been asking for years. | | |
| What do I want? I constantly feel like I'm in this endless search to be defined. To find MY personality that is unique only to me and feeling like I am never quite satisfied. Can I truly be happy? Am I honestly happy? Who knows. Here's what I know:
Tsuki is going to make me grow whether I like it or not. For people that have children or own high attention pets, I have a taste of how it feels. One thing I always wanted in life was to have children and it was more important for me to be a great dad. I hope I don't do her wrong. I go back and forth on what I want. I know it's not fair to the people in my life, but it's also not fair for me to not be sure. A family was what I want. I had it stairing me in the face, but I wanted to be sure and in the process didn't communicate with anyone. I guess that's just how I am. I'm sorry to those closest to me who are now hurt or confused. To ND, I honestly feel that you are too good for me and that I do not deserve you. You are amazing and really everything I want, but I fear how patient you'll be with me. I do hope you are happy as it seems that you are. I have to admit that I am a little jealous, but I don't think I would ever "say" it to you. =) My bike is really my one thing only for me. It is my escape, as soccer normally is, but due to circumstances (bum ankle), it's the place that is mine. I'm slowly adjusting to work and I get closer and closer to pursuing my desire of being a 2nd grade teacher. I'll get there one day, but in the meantime, I'll try to manage.  
My current active life order:
Responsibilities (Puppy), Friends (Closest), Hobbies (Bike), Work (Adjusting), Family (Immediate), Home
I know Family needs to be further up. | | |
| My other baby, =) First Bath
 Sit Tsuki...good girl!
 What a cutie!
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| If you told me that in one week, all of these changes were going to happen, I would say that you are NUTS! CRAZY! MADMAN! Turns out that anything can happen in a span of a week. So in light of these changes (though mostly work related), it got me thinking about change in general. I know we as humans are programmed to enjoy being comfortable. Whether it's financially, emotionally, environmentally or physically, we want to be comfortable with it. We change to be comfortable. The "shocker" factor comes when we are comfortable and things change on us (death, layoffs, break ups, relocation, etc). So while I reflect on the "change" that just 360'd my life, I know my life just spun, but that I'm still going in the right direction (or so I hope, haha). In the meantime, my birthday is coming up and for the first time, I know exactly what I want. I want something that's unique to all of the friends I have and that nobody can get me the same thing. And just because I'm nice, I'll give you options. -Your time
-Pictures of you and I
-The birthday song sung by you Have fun! =) | | |
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